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YSunday, July 30, 2006

It's been a month..

Finally... I've visited my nook here.. I've been so busy since periodic exams has started and it was really a hell month for me.

Well.. I'm going to leave this blog.. I have my reasons and this blog really do have a lot of damages done to my heart.

and here's my new home..

http://www.annasuperheroine05.blogspot.com
crunch_nanna05 took her pride away at 4:54 AM .

YSaturday, July 01, 2006

*Supposedly last June 30
Birthday Tragedy

So it's his birthday today and it seems very tragic for me. I didn't even seen him! *sad face* It was a great moment that I don't have classes on the same date of his birthday, and it seems like it is very disappointing that any moment of this day, I didn't even spent any quality time with him. =(

Wasted

I was with Frank just a wile ago and I accompanied him at Cubao for a job application. I was not expecting that we're going to spend almost 9 hours of waiting. Well, even though I waited for hours, I still enjoyed Frank's company it at the same time. It was just really funny because everyone who saw us most especially the guard on duty there, thinks that me and Frank were like bf / gf thing... hahaha.. Really funny!!

Anaphilic

Would you believe.. I'm loving my Anatomy subject!! I know it is really unbelievable but I was also surprised that I always look for my anabook anywhere and everywhere.. But I really hate it when our prof is giving out quizes, she gives quizes continously and it is really called "haggardness"!!

Loosing Grip

Haha.. I admit I'm a big huge JERK!! Stupid.. In filipino.. Tanga, gago, bobo, inutil hehe.. I feel like I'm loosing my grip slowly and I can't handle it anymore. Wala lang.. I'm tired and still I do not know myself.. I always talk to myself and still nothing happens. Everyday consults my friends, and still, I'm hard-headed.
aaaarrgghh... I'm really frustrated!!

Damn Try-out

I was looking for all bulletin boards saying "Girls Volleyball Try-out" and I didn't saw one. And yesterday, our anatomy prof announced that there will be a volleyball try-out LATER AT 4:00 pm. I was totally paralized!! It was really a bullshit slapped on my face!! I was not informed and I didn't even saw the ads. I was so disaappointed and I don't have an outfit suitable for a volleyball try-out, sobrang nakakapanghinayang talaga. It was my chance to grab another opportunity to join while I can still manage my time.
*sigh* it was totally disapponting!
crunch_nanna05 took her pride away at 10:30 PM .

YSunday, June 25, 2006

*sigh*

I think I'm going on Blog Leave!! I've been so busy lately and I even forgot to eat in time. Most probably this will be very fast because I still have tons of assignments and reviews to do.

Being so busy is not bad after all but it is really stressful. And after doing this, I'm going back to my damn boring life, falling in love with the wrong one, studying this excruciating nursing thing, amusement after class, volleyball varsity, etc..

I am deeply wasted slowly one at a time and I'm looking forward to sleep. I've bought an energy drink to suit my strength and I've been texting my friends to suit my emotional stability in life and in love. Doing these things really makes me anxious and it will really make me insane.

Anyways, I still have to study these:

RLE- Physical Assesment & Vital Signs
Foreign Language- Quiz on Describing yourself in Mandarin page 1,2,3,89 & answer pp. 13, 14, 15
Anatomy Lecture- Quiz on The Human Organism
Anatomy Laboratory- Organization of the Body Answer pp.51-56
Computer- I.T. Essentials
English- Philippine Literature Reporting on Longer than Mourning

and to lead over these:

I have to collect my class payments for the College Shirt.
I have also have to collect payments for the Triangular Bandage.
And I have to list down alphabetically all the names of my Team mates in Health Care w/ RLE *they're just about a 150 of them* argh..

It's really a good thing that I survived 1st year, even though I have lots of reklamos about my 2nd year, I'm still doing things the right way and I'm enjoying at the same time. Because of this, I realized that I still have things that I really do not know, and things that I know but a can't explain it after all. I'm happy because things in school is really doing great for me and still I can't deny that it is really really really very HARD! Kung baga sa PIU Exceed, NIGHTMARE! hehe..

Philippine Literature

Oh well, I've been enjoying Mr. Dividina's class in Philippine Literature. Inspite of being fluent in english, he's also full of wisdom. Wisdom that comes from the greatest dramatist in the world, William Shakespeare. He's a father that really does have a sincere heart. Strict one of a kind yet knows where to bring out his sense of humor. This sem, He became my favorite teacher because of his optimistic kind of mind, he knows everything in Literature and perfectly accents his english. Hoping that I can also access my english fluency in that way but in my own style.

Here's what he shares to us last meeting:

"All the world is the stage,
All men are merely players
that has exits and entrances"

Make yourself Busy

"Make yourself busy"??? They say that this is a one way of letting go of someone without the feeling of guilt. Huh? In my philosophy, my realationship with Janus, I didn't use this kind of theory na I have to make myself busy in order to forget him. Time heals, I know, but it depends on the person if you are ready to let him go or not. In my case, Janus went on with his life finding another girl to fulfill his needs. After breaking up with me and after let's say 20 days, he has a new one. Sobrang sakit sa akin at backfire yun! And yet, being busy didn't work at all. What I did is I contemplate and thought of things why and why not should I forget him. But, I didn't actually forget him kasi may pinagsamahan din kami kahit papano, I respect him now as my friend and nothing more nothing less. Di ko kinalimutan pero cherished ko parin yung time na I was with him, siguro nga sabi ni Lou, isa lang yan.. ACCEPTANCE right??

Ok, I am terribly in love with this guy and still I've been so dumb thinking of him all the time. Even when I study, he runs through my veins *haha* I mean, I've been thinking about him all the time, and he's my one main reason why I always visit the mall after class. Ang hirap lang kasi, I've been acting so weird this past few days, just yesterday, sobrang hindi ko na control yung sarili ko na ilabas ang tunay na nararamdaman ko, feeling melted upon seeing him with his girl. Sakit pero kailangan kayanin.. I was just so happy on the other side kasi hindi ako pinabayaan ng mga kaibigan ko sa exceed, isa na doon si Alvin, si Lester, si sandy, si Nina at lalong-lalo na si Joey. Joey accompanied me to a place wherein hindi ko sila makikita, Sobrang hindi ko ineexpect na siya pa yung mag-yayaya sakin na punta kami sa ibang lugar, as in kahit saan.. Ayun, nagpunta nalang kami sa bowling center, sa cr doon, para makapaghilamos tapos biglang paglabas ko ng cr, he was going to the cr too. Syempre gulat ako, I was about to go home to think about it, I mean settled na. Tapos ayun.. ay naku.. ewan.. Pag-uwi ko naman ng bahay, pupunta yung family ko ng sta.lu.. pasaway.. sumama ako kasi medyo gusto ko pang maglaro.. pero nung time na yun masdoble yung sakit na naramdaman ko about dun sa mga nangyari.. It was a hit fire for me.. para bang harap-harapan.. pero ok lang, duh?? nu ba magagawa ko.. hehe.. for sure naman tawa lang ako ng malakas wala nang maniniwala sakin na may iniisip akong malalim or nasisiraan na ako ng ulo.. Hindi ko naman tend na lokohin yung mga friend ko, but the fact na ayoko na silang pag-alalahanin about sa tunay kong nararamdaman. Kung baga, I'm comfortable wearing mask.

anyways, What I'm trying to point out here is do I have to let him go? Kasi pag kasama ko siya, I'm contented with what we have as a "special" friends but when he's with his girl, parang isa lang akong lumang arcade machine sa Wof na kulang nalang sabihin ko "hello??? laruin niyo naman ako!!!" haii.. Still.. syempre tigas ulo ito.. wait parin.. wala namang mawawala sakin kung maghihintay ako.. yun nga lang.. nakakadisappoint.. ewan.. basata yun na yun..

linabas ko lang dito lahat kasi minsan nalang ako mag-blog.. natutuon yung pansin ko sa dalawang bagay, sa anatomy at sa kanya.. Sana dumating yung time na maging bestfriend yung tingin ko sa kanya para hindi na ako maghinanakit.. bahala na.. Love will find a way.. haha.. joke..

ok, I have to go.. Study time nanaman.. hehe..
crunch_nanna05 took her pride away at 4:27 AM .

YTuesday, June 20, 2006

Happy Dad's Day

So last June 18, we clebrated our Father's Day at SM Mall of Asia. It was not having too much time to have fun because even though me and my family bonded so well, I know that there is still this "gap" between me and my family. I honestly did so many mistakes that I really made them hate me for that. But since I realized that it is not too late to deal with them and to accept that they are just being overprotective.

Anyways, since this is an opportunity to be close again with them, I certainly go with their flows. I enjoyed telling stories about what I was been doing lately in school and as usual, they listen but they do not understand. i got used to it and all i have to do is to amend and concentrate with my own life.

So as well as I enjoyed my family's company, I had fun roaming around the 3rd biggest mall in asia, The SM Mall of Asia. Rumors spread and it became the "talk of the town". Because of my mom's curiosity, we celebrated Father's day there. All we did the whole day was to stroll and enter each boutique. And because of that, I was tempted to buy a bag, and as usual, it is as big as me.. hehe.. Bought it it from Kultura Philippine-made garments, Back to the stroll, I went on solo. What I mean here is that, i roamed around all my myself, thinking about someone that I really have been hooked-up to. *sigh*

Love over matters

As I have said a while ago, I have been hooked-up with this guy and I can't get over him until now. I was stable of saying that I'm going to wait for him the best as I can. We talked yesterday about things which us running around us and we come up with decisions that will best suit our friendship and this "special" thing about us. I was actually happy about it and I can proudly say that this will be the best time I had with him and this time, I we talked over serious matters and I know there are still things that I laugh about at but deep inside I was really serious about it.

**This will be very fast cause I'm here now at our computer class for a free surfing of net.. hehehe... be right back when I got home...
crunch_nanna05 took her pride away at 11:50 PM .

YSaturday, June 17, 2006

Pressured & Pain Combined!

Its been a while since I posted my last entry and simply because I have started my classes last June 15 and at the same time my computer doesn't work. Anyways, So due to over-excitedness, I woke up at 4am and do my rituals and Went to Don's house (my classmate which is at the same time my neighbor). We went to school together and scarily face our new classmates. Honestly, I didn't have any problems when it comes to socializing. Its fun for me, most of all I'm a class joker! so I really don't have to worry about it but all the while, I'm quite scared because I honestly cannot please everybody just like everyone else. But inspite of that, I met new friends and deal with them because of the groupings and stuff. and here comes the leadership in me, again. I was appreciated by my classmates and they even chose me as their Team Leader in our Health Care 1 for our Community Service and I was given an opportunity to say my short speech-

Good morning, Thank you for choosing me as your team leader, I honestly do not guarantee you to sustain all your needs, yet, I will do my best to do my duty as you team leader, Thank you very much!

Whew... It was terribly scary yet fun because all of them gave me a round of applause and I really got into it. haha.. Some say they'll vote for me as the president of our class but honestly, I love serving and helping my classmates and other people as well, so obviously, I really want to be a part of the class officer but if I don't deserve it, I appreciate. Anyways, It's really a hectic schedule for me, I thought I will still have time for me to play after class, but I think I can still manage yet Its quite impossible.

I almost forgot.. During the first day, we also got our 1st quiz in anatomy which is actually postponed! haha.. Thank The Lord above! anyways, I just got quite panic because We we're given a short period of time to review the Microscope, its Parts and Functions and its History. I didn't got any problem in researching thanks to our updgraded technologies.. Anyways, Inspite of that, I really reviewed seriously so I'm very confident about the quiz but I was a bit disappointed but happy when she announced that the quiz qill be on the next meeting.. Thank Goodness!!

Books

Read, Read, Read.. -Mr. Dividina (Philippine Literature Professor) haha..

I was not surprise when one of our professors told us that CEU BS Nursing is one of the most expensive school in the Philippines because it was totally obvious! from the tuition, to uniforms, to books. And speaking of books, we got 11 books all in all which costs P4,464.60.!!! amazing

-For my classmates- AHSE-2I:

FSH 204
Basic Mandarin 2 - 330.00
Kaganapan ng Buhay 2 - 110.00
Phil. Lit. in English - 200.00
Manual of Nursing Procedures - 180.00
Essentials of Ana & Physio - 1,185.00
PE 3 Swimming - 160.00
Lab Manual: Essentials of Anatomy - 350.00

C & E Bookstore
Fundamentals of Nursing - 895.00
Ethics for Health Nursing - 157.50
Community Health Nursing (Maglaya) - 663.10
Sommunity Health Nursing (DOH) - 234.00

I already finish buying all those expensive books (honestly, I was quite pressured) early this week because for sure, there will be a LONG run again!! And that time, I was thinking if I could give a helping hand to my classmates so, Venjo, Beverly and I was negotiating of buying books by group. So analyzed and so we joined our forces to help them. So now, I'm the ones in charge. And on monday, we're going to buy those books by group, all together. Hope it will work.

Exceed

I really make the most of my time spending it to my friends at Wof. I was terribly missing them while I'm in school. Deep inside of me, I know I do not know them yet, but they've been so close to me and I really appreciate the thought of being friends with them. Di nila ako iniiwan sa ere.

Batch 1 and Batch 3


Me, Gles, Lester, James, Albert and Joey


Gles, Mars, Alvin, Me, Dolfo, jelai, Lester and Paa ni Nimrod..hehe


GM...

Frank: Thank you nga pala sa mga compliments.. hehe.. From saying "kalog", "saya kasama" and most especially, "batch 1 ka narin".. hehe.. Thanks really, I do appreciate everything. Thanks sa cd ha.. Don't worry, If I have a free time, I'm sure I'm going to spend it sa exceed..Take care!

Lou: Salbahe! hehe.., Isa ka rin sa sobrang mamimiss ko! Dami kong moments with you which is hindi ko talaga makakalimutan. Na-appreciate ko lahat ng "pambobola" mo at pati yung mga time na sinasamahan moko once na mag-isa lang ako sa sta.lu.. and isa pa, hindi ko rin makakalimutan yung time na nakilala kita at lalo na nung "sumablay" ako sayo. remember? anyways, thank you and I'm sorry.

Nimrod: Hindi man lang ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataong maging ka-close ka.. pero kahit walang pagkakataon, at least, pinagtagpo tayo ng tadhana para maging kaibigan kita.. Sobrang hindi kita masyadong kilala pero sa mga kilos mo, unti-unti kong nakikita yung totoong kulay mo, may maganda pero may pangit din, lahat naman tayo eh,. pero I hope, you'll realize things clearly. Mamimiss din kita saka yung "ting ting nala" mo.. ahehe

Agie & Cris: Hay.. ingatan niyo ang isa't-isa.. love losses its way when you face the reality.. Hope you'll value each others heart and be sensitive with each others feelings. Happy ako at naging-close tayo jorge.. hehe.. Di ko akalain sa tahimik mong yan,. nasa loob pala ang kulo mo.. hehe.. thank you ha.. hindi ko makakalimutan yung "untouchable hair mo"..ahehe

Harris: "wwaaappaakkk!!!" ahehehee... thank you sa Adobe Photoshop ha.. kung di dahil sayo di ko magagawa tong pangit kong site.. hahaha.. kaya lang.. bad news.. na-re-format ulit yung computer namin.. hehe.. pwede ko ba ulit hiramin yung USB mo?? ahehehe... hindi, kung ayaw mo, its ok.. Thanks nga pala sa mga thoughtful deeds mo ha.. sa mga concerns.. sobrang natutuwa ako sayo kasi napaka-gentle mo sa babae.. you really respect them.. Thank you talaga.. Alagaan mo rin si "Choco Hunny Bunch" mo ha.. Swerte siya to have a boyfriend named Harris meaning "babaero".. joke.. hehehe..

Alvin: Ang lasengero ng sta.lu... haii.. magbawas-bawas ka nga.. wala ka naman mapapala diyan eh.. and if ever.. "drink moderately".. ginagawa mo yatang tubig yung empy eh.. Basta.. don't ask me when it comes to dealing with "LOVE", even I myself can't handle it, what more kung sa iba pa.. Just learn how to accept and love yourself more than the other so that you'll not get seriously hurt! (wag kang gagaya sakin na martyr) ingat ka lagi...

Dolfo: Oist... sa susunod wag na susugod sa ulan ng galing sa exceed ha.. tapos pawis na pawis. saya saya.. Hehe.. hope hindi kasing gulo ng buhay ko ang buhay mo.. There are reasons why it really happened.. Just hope for the best and do the right thing.. He will be on His way to help and rescue you! Nice meeting you!!

Lester: Hello lester-doom... hahaha... Galing mo talaga mag-twist.. wala akong masabi!! sana one time magkaroon din ako ng sarili kong style in twisting.. malay natin.. ahehe.. pero pagdating sa mga gilid-gilid, idol talaga kita!! hehe.. wag ka na babaero!! masakit para sa amin yan.. Be serious enough to handle relationships.. Makakahanap karin ng tunay na magmamahal sayo..ahehe.. Just always remember.. "age doesn't matter!!" wahahahaha...

Iron: Lam mu.. di ko akalain makakapag-usap din tayo.. tahimik ka kasi saka hindi ka masyado umiimik.. tulad nga ng sabi mo, may pagka-manhid ka.. para sakin, tago yung EQ mo.. kay mahirap para sakin kilalanin ka.. huhu.. pero ok lang.. naalala ko lang yung nag-chat tayo about sa pagiging agnostic mo..hehe.. anyways.. salamat sa lahat!!

Albert So kamusta naman ang "ka-love team" ko sa exceed?? ahehehe... grabe.. minsan nalang tayo magkita... pero wala ka parin pinagbago.. mabait ka parin.. hope you do well on your demo and defense.. hehe.. malapit ka na grumaduate!! Good luck!! Ingat ka lagi..

Crash Dignity

hahaha... I already finished Crash Dignity (Hard), last stage for an "A".. hehehehe... It was luck actually.. more practice makes it perfect..
next prospect.. Pump me Amadeus (Hard) & Beethoven Virus (Freestyle).. hehehe...

crunch_nanna05 took her pride away at 7:52 AM .

YSunday, June 11, 2006

Service

So lets just say that I have to spend a little more time to God. Now, as a LCPA, an active church worker here at the Holy Trinity Parish, I was absent-minded during my 1st service as Lector. I did a lot of mistakes which humiliated me. That was June 8, 2006. As a lector, you have to walk thru the left side of the Ambo which I walked in thru the right side.. haha.. and the worse was, I was reading the Prayers of the faithful and I didn't realize that I was reading the part which is the Priest's job.. That was really humiliating.. after the mass, Father said, "Gusto mong mag-pari ha?! Sinabi mo na lahat ng sasabihin ko.. *laughs*" That was really embarassing!

But, for the second time around which was 7 hours ago, I'm a Lector again! But for a beginner, 2nd chances never lets me down! hehe.. I did it like it was a "job well done"! And not only that, My whole family attended the mass to support me, What I mean here is it is really unusual because they really do not attend mass regularly. Anyways..

Party for a cause

After my service, we have another activity, a party for a cause. This is fund-raising activity for the construction of the New Holy Trinity Parish Church. It's a 50.00 admission and free food. It was fun yet I didn't enjoyed it a lot because I was texting the whole time that I was dancing in the middle of the dance floor. There are two underground bands performed, the Pay it Forward,a rock Band & 9th Avenue, a hip-hop / 70's band.

Anyways, I just got hooked-up with the keybordist of 9th Avenue which is Teddy Katigbak. hehe.. I just got a crush on him. He's big and chubby yet cute and ASTIG. ahehe.. I just got an oppurtunity to meet him one on one after the show (thanks to Ate Daryl, the lead guitarist/vocals was her schoolmate before) anyways, we also got a picture! OMG!! ahehe.. enough of this.. ahehe..

Experiencing Pain

So I was broken once again! It was sunday, June 10, When I went to sta.lucia with my cousins. (an oppurtunity to spend a day with him again) I brought a Cadbury Chocolate Bar for him. Arrived at Wof seeing Frank, Nimrod, Lester, Gles, Melissa, Joey, Michael, Albert and Harris. So it seems like the one I'm looking for is missing, so I didn't speak to that. What I did was to sacrifice the pain of my feet and played Exceed. Yeah, actually I dance again that freaking Crash Dignity even though my feet still hurts. Back to my point, So I really want to go to Sta. lu to give my little gift of sincerety in saying Thank you for everything. It was already 6:00 pm and still no signs of him. Me and Frank was sitting behind the mall glass bars and talking about something serious when suddenly I saw him walking in front of me, with her girlfriend and a family. (I don't know whose family is that) anyways, I thought it will be easy for me but it was not. I was paralized that time and doesn't know what to do. Talking to myself as if I'm one of the craziest people in the Guiness Book of records. Thank God, dad called to check if we wanted to be fetched or not, but I didn't actually answered it because I was in an after-shock scenario. What I did was to tell Frank that I really have to go and my reason was I got kids which I am responsible for, so we have to be at home before it's late. It was awkward to Frank that I lied to him, but I have to.

Do you know where did I get really upset??.., It was when the chocolate melt, while waiting for him..

**Pictures soon to be published**

Current Mood: Melancholic, Embarassed & Humiliated
crunch_nanna05 took her pride away at 10:52 AM .

YFriday, June 09, 2006

Henna

haha.. Weird for me to post this shit. But I'm just proud because I had a henna tatoo just for free c/o Jelai.. Well, Since I was entering my teenage years, I really got into those henna and stuffs but unfortunately, I fail to have one.

"pangit tignan", "mukha kang adik".. Elders say!! Anyways, I think henna for me has a valuable lesson.. hhhmmm... A sharp needle-look-like pressed down to your skin with a black henna essense, feeling no pain (rather than a real tatoo), stays until it fades then erased for weeks. I believe that Life will be so much like a henna. Dark problems comes in and comes out of our lives, leaving a moment with our skin.. slowly fades away then will be forgotten for a lifetime.. I don't think you'll understand me.. Ang gulo kasi ng explaination ko eh...

Current mood: Exasperated, Discouraged & Unsatisfied
crunch_nanna05 took her pride away at 8:11 AM .

Annaliza
Amorous Nocturnal Nonconformist Adeptly Luxuriating in Intense Zeniths and Affection



As I always say, I'm an ordinary girl with extra-ordinary dreams! I'm a type of person that really do appreciate small things. I love being praised by other people and most of all gives me a compliment. Because of too many experiences with my 1st & last bf, I became a hard-hearted person. I always do all my best in everything that I do like being one of the Class officers, Student Councils or Club slash Org. I'm a person who believes that Music is life, without music -there's no life. I also know where to stand in times of trouble. I believe that I'm Independent to manage my whole life yet because I'm still young, I admit I really need to depend first with my parents for the sake of my education. And speaking of Education, I really devote myself in studying, especially now that I'm a 2nd year college at Centro Escolar University taking-up Nursing, I really have to be inclined with my studies since I really have to work hard for this because this will be The most precious gift that I'm going to give to my parents. Aside from being studious, I'm very responsible. I know how to handle things in where they are supposed to be placed. I also have the ability Sing which I believe I have strong passion for it. I also can Dance, I'm a cheerleader/dancer. I also have a high aim of being an International Volleyball Player and an Extra-ordinary Businesswoman. i also have strong desire of being successful in life, not only to gain wealth but to sustain all of me and my family's needs, having Dignity and enough Pride so I will NEVER be a doormat!.Well I also have deep intention of serving God. joining PYM (Parish Youth Ministry) and LCPA (Lector, Commentator, Psalmist & Auxilary)